I used to wake up with words in my mind
Now everything I write feels hollow
I used to lose myself in the dance
These days I struggle just to follow
You took more from me than you'll ever know
It's like you ripped away a piece of my soul
I don't know who I am anymore
Nothing feels real and I don't know why
I don't want to live anymore
Oh but I don't want to die

2/5/2020

I don't want to write about the soulcrushing emptiness

Or how much I long to feel wanted

I don't want to wonder if who might miss me

Or if anyone would cry at the service

I want a place where I belong

And emotions that don't feel like a scream

I want something to believe in

But I don't even know who I am

I guess this miserable uncertainty

Is just my destiny

Who am I meant to be?